grains of injustice and the sensitive soul

It seems I'm always complaining, and most of the time it's about the same irritants. For that, you have to forgive me. It's hard to swallow what you cannot change, and, for people with delicate consciences, even the slightest grain of injustice irks them. I happen to be one of those people, not that it counts as a blessing or compliment in any way. OCD sufferers have their tics, and I have mine. I wish I didn't (some persons close to me wish I didn't also) but it seems that is a burden I will have to ever until a time comes when I become more callus to life or achieve the perspective of life that everyone else seems to enjoy. If that day ever comes, I know I would not be the only one who breathes a sigh of relief.

people change..and who cares but me?

I refuse to kiss up or compromise just to hold on a sentiment or " a simpler time". If people want to trade up and/or "up" the dosage of social medication, dont expect me to join the "conga line." To be blind to the ungratefulness of people, I am convinced you would fail if you tried on your own. There definitely needs to be a higher power when dealing and overlooking the trauma fellow human beings deal to you.

Keeping grudges is a full-time responsibility, but it seems letting things go makes you a wuss. People take their eyes and pass you. This world has become so capitalist that it views friendship as a pawn and kindness as a weakness. For you to be taken seriously, you must be ruthless, shrewd, and a little bit ungrateful. Otherwise, you will be the one sitting like an ass in your morality and decency, and see the "backstabbers" pass you by in their social vehicle flaunting their comraderie. (as if that's not awkward)

If you want to fit in, you gotta do what it takes; adapt, conform, by all means do what you gottta do. After all, there are only two actions you can take in this world..accept or change. I speak for myself when I say I change passively and somewhat grudgingly (relative to the pace of others). I change for the sake of inevitability, and accept everything else. To you who see this as weak or misguided, I have 2 words for you.. "I dont give a damn" Remember when you didnt give a damn either?

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rampant disregard for human dignity

Nothing feels colder than to watch from the outside while social privileges are being shared. The purposeful exclusion of some from basic conveniences is scarring as it is but to watch, in plain view, others enjoying what you are barred from is traumatic. Prolonged exposure to such treatment and conditions often create pent up feelings of animosty and inferiority. An ill-conceived idea is that social injustice is coincidental or a failure of some social machine. In fact, all social injustices and denial of equal opportunities is deliberate; usually a move of dominance. After all, the inferiority is the greatest tool in exerting control.

Those made to feel inferior or unworthy remain under the millstone of inferiority and disrespect are not there because they are foolish. Rather, it is the inability to escape due to the very lack of opportunities and the weakness this "system" applies. The eternal pursuit of "being good enough" as those who relish will keep the oppressed chasing an apple dangling in front of their faces, close enough to see, never nearer no matter how long they trod.

There is not a facet of life that is immune to incidents of denial of justice or opportunities for the purpose of control. Uncanny, animals have strange behavior and mannerisms, but only humans exploit whatever and whomever they can.

It is very interesting to study human behavior and humans treat other humans.
It is very confusing to balance your personal self worth and how much other people value you. I see it so often in Decipher where some people are made to feel their input and presence, more or less, is not necessary while the "faux pas" of others are applauded or goes unpunished. It is strange because in an environment where employees pride themselves in being the backbone and vital link to the success of the enterprise, they are made to feel otherwise because of varying degrees of embrace given. One could venture to say, being headstrong and charming can get you further than hardwork and general dedication to your job. What ever happened to the decent way of things. It seems not only the workplace but the entire world is adopting a capitalist mentality where the people who sweat the most and contribute the most are the ones robbed of their pride while those in the pivotal positions frankly "don't give a shit" about who does what as long as the system runs accordingly. There is no sense of morality anywhere. To succeed, you must align yourself with the right people. If you do not, you are doomed to a cycle of hardwork and the odd feeling of "something is not right."

parting is akin to eating "chinese takeout"

Building up the resolve to leave someone or somewhere takes little or no effort. It is the packing up of all the things that kept you company all the years you stayed one place. You dont feel it until you literally pick up pieces of little things scattered about and realize how much time has passed. Oh how it accumulates.

Now that I am packing up to go, I realize those years that flew by actually left little tokens so I can remember them. Its not the leaving that will hurt me, maybe what I am leaving behind will hurt a bit, maybe I will miss my little "niche" I have set up, BUT what will hurt the most is the fact that I will remember this place for a long time to come.

Parting is like eating food that you trying for the first time, you dont know what the heck you're swallowing, but you do it anyway with one big gulp.

Sentimental hearts miss the slightest things about bad situations. I think I have an idea why people refuse to give up on relationships that are bad for them...they simply love the person. Well, my heart was truly in the work I did.

So long...farewell..auf weidershen,...goodbye....adieu, adieu to u and u and u..

disclaimer

My intention was never to malign anyone or insult. If I or what I have said were to be scrutinized and, without a doubt, be illogical or untrue, then I would have no problem recanting. My opinion is my own. I do not speak for anyone else when I say what I say. Of course, the possibility exists that the perspective I hold may not be held by many others but, from where I stand, it holds a lot of truth and validity.