grains of injustice and the sensitive soul

It seems I'm always complaining, and most of the time it's about the same irritants. For that, you have to forgive me. It's hard to swallow what you cannot change, and, for people with delicate consciences, even the slightest grain of injustice irks them. I happen to be one of those people, not that it counts as a blessing or compliment in any way. OCD sufferers have their tics, and I have mine. I wish I didn't (some persons close to me wish I didn't also) but it seems that is a burden I will have to ever until a time comes when I become more callus to life or achieve the perspective of life that everyone else seems to enjoy. If that day ever comes, I know I would not be the only one who breathes a sigh of relief.

people change..and who cares but me?

I refuse to kiss up or compromise just to hold on a sentiment or " a simpler time". If people want to trade up and/or "up" the dosage of social medication, dont expect me to join the "conga line." To be blind to the ungratefulness of people, I am convinced you would fail if you tried on your own. There definitely needs to be a higher power when dealing and overlooking the trauma fellow human beings deal to you.

Keeping grudges is a full-time responsibility, but it seems letting things go makes you a wuss. People take their eyes and pass you. This world has become so capitalist that it views friendship as a pawn and kindness as a weakness. For you to be taken seriously, you must be ruthless, shrewd, and a little bit ungrateful. Otherwise, you will be the one sitting like an ass in your morality and decency, and see the "backstabbers" pass you by in their social vehicle flaunting their comraderie. (as if that's not awkward)

If you want to fit in, you gotta do what it takes; adapt, conform, by all means do what you gottta do. After all, there are only two actions you can take in this world..accept or change. I speak for myself when I say I change passively and somewhat grudgingly (relative to the pace of others). I change for the sake of inevitability, and accept everything else. To you who see this as weak or misguided, I have 2 words for you.. "I dont give a damn" Remember when you didnt give a damn either?

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rampant disregard for human dignity

Nothing feels colder than to watch from the outside while social privileges are being shared. The purposeful exclusion of some from basic conveniences is scarring as it is but to watch, in plain view, others enjoying what you are barred from is traumatic. Prolonged exposure to such treatment and conditions often create pent up feelings of animosty and inferiority. An ill-conceived idea is that social injustice is coincidental or a failure of some social machine. In fact, all social injustices and denial of equal opportunities is deliberate; usually a move of dominance. After all, the inferiority is the greatest tool in exerting control.

Those made to feel inferior or unworthy remain under the millstone of inferiority and disrespect are not there because they are foolish. Rather, it is the inability to escape due to the very lack of opportunities and the weakness this "system" applies. The eternal pursuit of "being good enough" as those who relish will keep the oppressed chasing an apple dangling in front of their faces, close enough to see, never nearer no matter how long they trod.

There is not a facet of life that is immune to incidents of denial of justice or opportunities for the purpose of control. Uncanny, animals have strange behavior and mannerisms, but only humans exploit whatever and whomever they can.